About three months ago, I began taking antidepressants. It was a huge step for me, because it’s one that I’d been avoiding taking for years. Deciding to finally help myself was a Very Big Deal. However, not all medications work for all people. The one I was on was not the right one for me. I was sleeping 20 hours a day and was always tired, and the sexual side effects were brutal.
So yesterday I went to a psychiatrist, instead of my primary care doctor. She told me that the medication that I had been given was known for causing lethargy and fatigue, and as someone that already has chronic fatigue as a result of hypothyroidism, all that would do was exacerbate it. I also have ADHD, which I have been prescribed medication for for a while now.
The psychiatrist was amazing and suggested a medication that is an antidepressant, but also can be used in treating chronic fatigue AND ADHD, because it is a stimulant. She took me off my ADHD medication, and wants to see how this one medication will work for me. This medication is also known for having some of the least sexual side effects as well.
I begin taking it today. All I can do is keep my fingers crossed that this is the right medication for me, and that I can begin to crawl back out of the hole that I’m currently in, because I can’t cry or hurt anymore. I can’t stay holed up in my room for days on end. I can’t live among rotting food and empty soda cans because cleaning it up would be too much energy. I can’t sleep multiple days in a row away. And if this isn’t the right medication, either, I’ll continue to try and find the one that is.
I have to keep helping myself, because no one else will.