I don’t handle rejection well. I know this about myself. I always wonder what I did wrong. Why I wasn’t good enough. What could I have done differently. What I shouldn’t have done. How I could have made them like me more. Even though I know, deep down, that it wasn’t my fault, I couldn’t have done anything differently, and that I *am* good enough. Knowing that doesn’t really make it any easier and it doesn’t make it hurt any less.
Because no matter how many times I tell myself that it wasn’t my fault, it doesn’t change the reality of the situation. And that reality is that he doesn’t want me. And that reality sucks, no matter how you try to frame it.
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Oh honey. It was never, ever your fault. You didn't deserve that kind of treatment. You're too good for him and, someday hopefully soon, it will sink in.
Perhaps he is rejecting you. But it sounds like you're better off without him anyway.
Keep your chin up, young lady!
You're leaving out the part where another's desire for you has no bearing whatsoever on your self worth.
Yes, he doesn't want you but in no way does that make you less desirable.
Choose a different path, hun…this one isn't serving you
Don't let him get you down. Some people just suck and sometimes shit just doesn't work out.
I'm with Red on this.
"…another's desire for you has no bearing whatsoever on your self worth."
I know it's so easy to lose sight of that, but it's true.
No one likes to be rejected, but letting it get to you is just another way of externalizing your self-worth.
So chin up.
You did what you could. You reached out time and time again. If the other person is unwilling to reach out as well, at least you can be comforted by the fact that you tried. And really, that’s all we can ever do.