I had a very, very intense, detailed sex dream about Bartender last night. We were having amazing sex and it was very intimate and wonderful. I got off during the dream, which I always love. The dream continued after that, and I’m not really sure what was going on, but Bartender and I were clearly still together and I remember an overwhelming of feeling of the two of us being in love. I loved him very deeply when we were together, and a part of me will always love him, even if he’s the wrong person for me. That part makes total sense. He’s currently incarcerated and I think about writing to him sometimes, but haven’t made the effort to get his address. I’m still not sure if I will.
As for the two of us having amazing sex, well, that stopped happening a few months into our relationship. He jerked off three times a day, which never left much energy or drive left for fucking me. Our sex sessions would begin like this, EVERY. SINGLE. TIME:
Bartender: “Wanna do it?”
Me, wanting to get laid, would of course say yes, and would have to suck his dick for, like, half an hour until he was sufficiently hard.
Bartender: “You can sit on it if you want.”
So, the sex in the dream could have been reminiscent of the sex early in our relationship, or representative of the intense love that we had for each other in the dream. Either way, I’ll take an orgasm in my sleep any day.
I'm Britni, a snarky bitch and generally awesome person. I write about sex, love, and bullshit. If sex-positivity, discussions about BDSM and kink, queer issues, and topics that are completely inappropriate by society's standards make you uncomfortable, then this blog is not for you.
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lol@ wanna sit on it.
Bad decisions for him to jack over actual sex?!
wtf is that about?
yay for dreamy sexytime
and yay for love like you had with bartender, and sex like u had with bruiser, and the kind of caretaking that I think you deserve and haven't gotten yet (at least not recently). I think you are getting ready to move forward.
Sorry if that sounds cheesy, sweets. I want you to have all the good parts rolled into one
My bf is just like that- he needs a sitcom length blow job to get it up. Sometimes I wonder if he's really into me at all. So I can relate here.
But wtf…incarcerated??? Brit, even though SFL has lots of "detritus" in the dating pool, you need to keep better company.
Riva, SFla
River,
There was a whole saga with him, in which there was stuff I didn't know about him when we started dating. You can click on his tag and read about it if you want.
Ugh, sounds like my sex life with my ex. Except he didn't jerk off; just played on his computer all the time.
Luckily, the new guy fucks like a goddamn animal ALL THE TIME.
Absolutely beautiful bush, but i must add, he wasted the good things and time, obviously.
But you'll get yours, if not already.
whats inside your head is all worth it, to someone who knows what to look for. In my opinion, your a good catch