My Republican Cowboy is moving next week. He’s going to be 1,000 miles away from me. Him and I don’t see each other much, but when we do, sparks fly and I feel at ease. He makes me feel beautiful and wanted and perfect, just the way I am. He said that when he found out that he was moving, the first person that came to mind was me. He realized that he was going to miss me, and he realized how badly he fucked up by never asking me out or pursuing anything with me. We’ve hung out much more often since he told me he was moving, but our relationship has remained platonic, with some making out thrown in.
In fact, I haven’t slept with him in over a year. And that was the only time that we ever slept together. Something always stops me from going there with him, even though he wants it and I know that deep down I do, too. But for some reason, he’s always been more than sex to me. For me, sleeping with him would be more than just a physical thing and involves a lot of emotion for me. It’s been a long time since someone accepted me so completely for who I was, and made me feel beautiful no matter what I was wearing or what I looked like. I know that he cares about me, and when someone feels the way that he does about me, it’s hard for me to look at sex as just sex. It’s more than that.
And so, I’ve avoided going there with him. We hold hands, we make out, and we cuddle. We adore each other. We’re going to be hanging out tonight. And I’ve decided that I am going to sleep with him. It feels like the right thing to do and a fitting way to say goodbye to someone that has done so much to remind me that I’m beautiful and that I deserve somebody better than I’ve allowed myself to have. I think it’s a proper goodbye to an amazing man.
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It sounds like Republican Cowboy is in for a good time! But it's too bad that you're losing a close friend, literally if not figuratively…
Well just his nickname tells me he is the best kind of people.
Hope it goes well and is delightful!
I think it is a really good idea to give him and you a proper goodbye like that. Otherwise you might always wonder…
Have fun, babe!!
Tonight sounds like one of those nights you could never forget even if you tried. I hope it is wonderful, and I hope I'm not hyping it up!
What an awesome way to say goodbye with out having regrets later